Spring colors

 I'm still waiting for the explosion of 
spring colors. Days are gray and miserable,

squirrels don't dare put their nose out from 

their home in my ancient tree, flowers forget it,

the snow is so heavy and plentiful that it will

take the sun for a hole week at 80 degree to 

melt everything. 

Guess I have no option than just sit and wait for

spring to manifest itself in my part of the world. 

Crying ... alone

Crying alone in my misery is nothing new for me

Since my early childhood there is no respite 

in my lonely life.

I ask myself "what did I do to deserve this 

evergoing misery?" but to no avail, there is not

answer. So let my tears fertilize my life, let it

serve as a reminder that we don't choose why we

are born or what is the purpose of our life on this

broken down planet or my broken down life...

The river

 

When the river talks to you the least you can do is
listen and reflect, We are the invasor, the extravagant

polluter and killing of river,ocean,lakes,but not only

we are killing the habitants of these great expands

of  fresh and salty waters. Why are we killing all that

falls between our hands. Nature the great creator 

this it's best job and lended it to us. But then one day

hopefully not during my life time, nature will just

die of trying to please mankind. Mankind is a stupid

predator and destructor and he laughs about it.....

When will it end

There is no ending in view to this lousy winter,

my childhood winters are gone to never return.

How do I feel, it's a constant daily changing story,

I open my eyes with the hope that colors are back,

that snow has disappeared and birds are back to

singing their natural melody.

BUT

My bones are rebelling continually to no avail,

no creams,no caressing, no resting helps, it's a

daily combat between myself and my aging body

now it's a question as who will be more resilient

in our fights...

Lost angels

When a child is called to heaven

there is no sensitivity left in the 

hearts of parents.

A child is the fruit of love, a 

continuation of our soals and a hope

for our old days. 

Why are we loosing children in wars,

natural disasters and killing them for

no apparent reasons.  Killings of 

2 small angels who were at a daycare

is the most excrutiating pain for the

parents, people who take care of these

children and first aid responders who

are helpless in saving them...

Solitude

Life is an island of solitude,
if you know how to fish 

you shall get all  your pleasures

of this mortal world offers you.
It does not take much to make you happy
to have a full life and good and bad

times, but then only you are the master 

of your life and happiness 

even with simple things
that come your way...

 

Real or not...

It's been a while that I did not go out for 
multiple reasons. A little might be due to

the fact that with age my bones do not  want

to obey me anymore. 

On the first cold or a slight wind, my mind

starts rebelling and keeps telling me "Is it 

really necessary to go out...?".

So I engulf some fresh air from an open window

look around to see if activities go on around my

backyard and would you guess it this year there

are no birds playing around with the bird feeders.

So all this is to say, listen to your body, and just

work with what you have in your own home.

A little like this plastic rose that keeps me company

until I can go out and search for real roses and

flowers to immortalize with my small camera. 

 

Cheap life

When you call a human being a friend
without meaning it, then you are 

cheating life.

You profess your love, 

then stab them in their back, 

that's criminal.

You put on a pretty face, sweet words

to better murder another life.

What is LIFE worth for you?

It's a cheap commodity under your

dirty hands.  It doesn't create a dent

in your mind that you are right and

everyone else is wrong if they don't

adhere to your thinking.

We reached a point where we all

cry for justice, but there's no justice

available for the pettiness we show

for ourselves and others.

We promote individuals hoping in

their fairness without thinking they

are just as unfair to this world but

they are excellent actors in convincing

of their rightness to the world, but

do not try to comprehend their reasoning

you would loose the little justice that

you are hoping for...

Money is the EVIL of evil  and no one

wants to hear it....  

RIP Lisa Marie

When a young child looses a parent

it's a pandora box that closes for ever.

When you loose a famous father 

it's a pain that is hiding in a corner of

your heart just at the mention of his name,

you hear his voice, his laughs or his

cries, his nonsense jokes or even a soft

goodnight, those are your memories 

and you cry about your loss of that time

that could have been yours and his.

You too lost a child and your heart

rebelled but then you had to care for

the others who were depending on you.

You silenced you heart picking up all

the pieces shattered and unmendable,

just the way you did at the loss of your

dad. 

You have finally reached a point by

leaving this mortal world and went to

join your dad and son.  Now your heart

is mended and you can sleep in peace

in their arms.   

Future holding of 2023

Wish I had prepared something a little
more original to WISH A HAPPY AND

PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR 2023 ALONG

LOT'S OF HEALTH. 

Unfortunately I don't have great belief

in my own wishes.  The world is upside down

and humans also.  

But let me think positive at least for this 

transitional night.    

On a silent night

On a silent night a new born arrived.

Peace was palpable in a furious and 

bostorious town.

Why is it so silent to be almost scary

and unusual time in early winter night.

Chimneys can be counted by the 

release of white smoke and went to 

the sky on a starry night.

I dream or is it a sweet melody that

I can hear or is it just an imagination

from the old tales of my grandmother.

I wonder the streets confident that on

this silent night no harm will fall on 

me, I feel protected and confident that

that on this silent night only good hearts

roam the street of this silent night in

a silent town.

PS: Photo not mine, if author recognizes his

work, please let me know to give you credit.  

 

Fearless

On a misty night engulfed

in silence only my taughts

were wondering around.  My steps

had no directions, my eyes no views

just a mist dancing around me.

Why did I leave my heaven to

run after dreams that will never

materialize.  The whistling of a gentle

breeze mixing with the heaviness of

the mist, my body kept going and going

on without counting the steps or

the tiredness of my old bones.

Sundowns are for young lovers who

still have faith in their future, the

warmth of the sun going down is

not enough for me.  So I stop counting

steps, I kept on my normal pace to

eventually arrive at a destination that

is not mine or is it...

NB: Photo not mine but if owner recognize

it please send me an e-mail & I will give

you full credit.
 

Lost

What do I have to loose,

since some of my dreams I

have renounced, of my body

I have never paid much attention.

Now that the age has finally

reached me, only my soul is

still in the air transported to 

the thousands whims of the

wind.  I can scream, I can 

put up a tantrum, but no one

is there for me. I hide like

a rabbit in my hole and fear

the unknown world.  Do I

keep dreaming or do I just

put an end to this miserable

life.  A little star one night

fell from the darkened sky

put a light and a twinkle

in my eyes that really showed

me that LIFE WAS STILL WORTH

LIVING... 

 

Searching the sky

Not one star is adorning the sky
for company tonight.

The moon is slowing disappearing
behind thousand clouds
shading the world in darkness.

Alone I shine 

while the night dominates 

until the daylight appearance

making it's  slow arrival.

You are like the moon 
that shines in the sky 
on a starless night for all of

us who dare lift our eyes to the

blackened sky. 

 

What to do....

That's a million dollar question?

What do you do when you realize

that the person you've been with for

the last 51 years has no more will to

live and is just pulling down everyone

with him.

It's sickening, it's sad, it's intolerable

since there seems to be nothing that

will take him out of the deep depression.

We try to talk, to reason, to be gentle

but to no avail.  Will not ask for help

but in a way kind of agree with him

since the covid period it's hard to get

in touch with doctors or even see them

face-to-face. A phone call is absolutely

not the same.  But what do I do?

Short of just letting him go down is own

path then I feel guilty.

Those who suffer

A cure was not invented yet

so in a soft whisper a voice

was heard, "come to me",

With tears flowing down our

eyes, you softly went away,

our love for you did not manage

to make you stay. A heart of gold

you were and you decided to 

stop beating, your hard working

hands are now still.  Our broken

hearts are the message that 

only the best are taken away

before their time....

 

Remember

Peace to our young and old men and women

who to save our lives and world gave their own

lives.  

What is my country going through these

days, no one really knows, is it greed, is it craziness,

or just people forgot what a war and suffering is....

Populations have not learned a lesson from our

deaths, we stood tall and took bullets, bombs,

shells, we sank to the bottom of dark oceans,

we froze to death on mountains that were not 

even ours, we stood side-by-side in trenches

days on, we suffered hunger and cried for lost

limbs.  We wrote letters to our mothers, fathers,

brothers, sisters, children, wives telling them

that all was not so bad...

Why am I yelling "STOP" you crazy fools

wars are destructions, killing of innocents doesn't

do nothing to better the world, it just distroys 

humans.  US under the ground, can't smell the

fresh air, the blue skies, the feel of a snow flake

on our faces, WE DON'T HAVE A FACE, we

gave it for YOU and only YOU.

Waiting

While time goes by 

nature itself is lost

to the craziness of humans. 

He who does not respect nature, 

nature will not respect humans

wishes and lashes it's fury upon

them...

These days we see calamities 

all over our globe.  But still

humans do not get the lesson.....

These

Nature's fire

 

Fires that captures the imagination

and pleasure of the photographer is

nothing compared to the show put on

by nature.  After a harsh summer heat or

a lousy weather for days on, the animals

start to leave for warmer pasture or for

reproducing then here comes the explosion

of colors, bright red, oranges or light green

mixed with darker colors, it creates such a

painting that not even the MOST famous

artist can even come close.

Let it flow....

If life could flow so gently

one would live for eternity.

 

Broken

The tree of life is 

BROKEN

Do you see a piece that is intact

what will it take to make it hole 

again?

Wish upon a cloud

 

Will a wish upon a cloud bring me something?

What could I wish that mother nature could

be king and gentle enough to me.

I'm sitting down on a grassy patch in a city park

looking at the sky and day dreaming about 

absolutely what I could expect from the sky.

A shy sunray caresses my face and I feel happy

to be alive, while a gentle breeze softly moves

by gray hair and shows all the highlights of 

my graying status to the world to see. I do not

care anymore if the world will say "who is that

old lady and why does she enjoy life under

such a gorgeous blue sky with gentle giants trees

showing the old leaves putting on their best parure

to the world.  I'm not a painter so I can't render

full homage to the beauty that my eyes are feasting

on.  But all presents are short lived and before I know

it I have to leave this paradise oasis and return to

the reality of life that is waiting for me....

Autumn season

 

Autumn is a season of death 

and colors. For humans autumn is the

best time of the year to leave this world,

in a fashion of colors that no painter

can try to achieve.

Nature itself starts the sleeping ritual,

the sheading of it's life and gets ready to

sleep and gather it's strength of regiuvenation.

Never fear as long as there is a seed of life

it will germanate after a long wintery sleep.

Beauty

 

What a phenomenal word is 

BEAUTY

Not all know the true meaning until

we are faced with the stupidity of humans.

Beauty, the real beauty, is the one inside

hidden from viewers but felt by the

surrounding feelings of a beautiful heart,

We can marvel, we can comment and

at times even disregard beauty just

because we are incapable of accepting

that it is not ours and are envious of

those who posses this quality.

Apache blessings

Let the sun energize you during the day,
moon sweetly regenerate you through the night,
let the rain wash away your preoccupations,
let the wind blow energy in your being,
may you walk the world
and appreciate it's beauty
every day of your life.

NB:  This translation as accurate as it can be

is never 100% what the real taught is...

So please excuse my translation. 

  

Looking

A soft sound almost did not reach my ears.

I felted the need to to turn my head around

to search for the sound, but instead I just

moved my eyes at an 180 degree, so if the

sound was human it would not run, if it

was an animal whispering it would not stop

it's melody.

No such luck, I took another few  slow steps

careful as to where I put my feet not wanting

to disturb or crush the fallen leaves and avoiding

the cavernous noise that it would make.

A curious crow would jump between branches

calling its friends but they too seemed silent as

to not make and audible sounds. 

I searched the surroundings to no avail, life was

silent, the air chilled my bones, but still I could 

hear the sound, why do I still hear that piercing

sound, if I block my ears can I erase that sound

or is it me that is troubled by my taughts. 

I direct my eyes to the sky and it was a blinding

sun almost red or was it orange, I stop the 

inquiring and followed a strange light that

kept approaching me and hypnotized my senses

more than I wished for.  

To be continued... 

NB: Photo not mine

What have we done...

Destruction by humans is a known fact.

No one really cares that we are going down
the drain.   How so, do you ask:
1) 

Humans do not have RESPECT, 
when you lack respect you have not values.
 2) 

Humans are stupid and in their stupidity
they loose themselves.

3)

Nature is fed up so it's letting us, 

"Hey wake up otherwise I will show you

what I can do to wake up us".

4)

The sun is melting you & still you don't 

believe it's force.

5)

I will continue and maybe if we all put

our heads together we can find a very

minimal solution ....

 

No food for me

Where is my food these days.

Men is a mean creature in my book,

it's destroying my playground, my 

food, my home.  Flowers are becoming 

so rare that I labour to find nectar to 

replenish my body before the long journey

home. I believed in mankind to be generous

and helpful towards my life, but such was

not the case. Burning, cutting, destroying my

food and home is so hard for me to accept,

that I know I won't make my trip to reach

my original birthplace. Why do I search, must

I really just laydown and die...

 

Single Flower

"If I had a single flower
 for every time I think of you

I would be able to walk 

forever in my garden that

bears your name. I try to keep

it as you left it, there's no

hardship that will stop me

from taking good care of it.

You left a single flower in

your garden to remind us

that life is lived one day

at a time and we are SPECIAL

and unique in this garden that

we call earth".

People disappearance

Since our lives changed in the last 3 years

there seems to be a shortage of capable

working people.  

Were are all the people who were fighting

for a job or would be anxious of loosing 

their posts.

I do not believe that these baby boomers all

decided they had enough.

Just I don't believe that the population are

excessively rich and not concerned about

their financial future.

Something is wrong... what did all these

people win a lottery to be financially solvent?

What about children needs and their

education, the teachers have vanished...

Humans are a very weird specie.  They are

never happy or sad, they except everything

to be served on a silver platter, or do they

believe that money will fall from the trees or

the sky and as such do not need to earn it.

I will not influence anyone to do what my

generation had to go through, but then 

please do not come and cry to me that

you can't make ends meet.  

 

How long...

How can I count the time that has passed
since you last came into arms?
These arms are tired of waiting, 

they need your warmth, strength, 

protection and hold me tight to your 

warm body.

A traitor does not run or hide, he bloats

his cowardness and spitful reaction to

my sight.  

With which right do you use those looks, 

what have I done that you can't stand 

even the sight of my shadow?

did you listen to the snake's two tongue,

that now fills your days and nights?

I'm just wandering what when wront

from your heart to mine in the space

of 24 months.  Now with your tail between

your legs, how dare you present yourself

and ask for my understanding of your little

escapade.  No, thank you, I prefer to return

to my spiker webs and continue the long wait

for a gentleman to pass by who will know that

my heart is in million pieces and needs more

than a feint smile and lies to calm my rage 

and my lost passion for the love of my lost

life...

Crying for the world

There's no use to shed tears,
I'm too old to cry,

my face rivals rivers paths

full of tears shed by humans

who is made of stones without

a bleeding heart. I, in my old age

can affirm that each and everyone

of us have felt shame, disgust,

rage, compassion for our friend's

nation around the world who can't

stop crying for help, for a crumb

of food but we are too stupid in

responding either for lack of time,

lack of understanding or just lacking

compassion. Do not close your eyes,

or your ears to falsities, to your

well being without thinking of your

brothers and sisters who are suffering

from the wombs of the earth and are

calling for YOU and ME for a helping

hand... 

  

NB: This video is not mine, if you 

recognize your work please email me

& I will give you credit.

Angel Flight

I'm sorry I did not know that
you would leave us in a blink of an eye.
I forgot to tell you a million times 

that I loved you so much that  

my heart broke in pieces that day.  

There are no words,.

 no amount of tears,
no screams, 

bagging head or just
a sound that keeps me alive

until I see your lifeless body.
Where are you my angel...
you just took flight with those
wonderful teachers and friends. How will
I live now that you are gone, who will
come and kiss me so that I could shower
you with my warm kisses.

A chair is empty, your  room is now closed

to the world, where I go and lay down,

never wanting to leave it. You said: "Mamma

I have so many dreams for you and me 

when I'm a little older, I swear I will take

good care of you...".

Dear son/daughter now you pray for us

down here on earth.  

You are my loved angel, be good wherever

you are and pray that we survive this

darkness that has engulfed us. 

 

 

If I could change ...

How strange it is to be sitting behind my computer

and don't have to worry about a fall ending my life.

These days are very harsh and difficult for the human race

who don't want to be disturbed in their routine.

But please don't you care that I who is a pensioner

can't meet both ends. If I want to drink water, I have

to assure myself that it is boiled for a few minutes,

there's lead in our city pipes.  If I want to eat proteins

there's a great price in meat, vegetables, that I just can't

afford.  I'm too old to use a bike and too dangerous due

to the state of our city roads.  Let's not count the price

of gas for my little car, from a 25 dollar full tank to now

52 dollars, so I let it sit.  Then I will need a new pair

of walking shoes and they cost an arm and a leg, INFLATION.

Do I have to pay for the AIR THAT I BREATH on a 

daily basis.

If I could change the world I would go back to the ancient

days and the law of the stronger to survive.  Today you 

just can't SURVIVE  or die because it's too EXPENSIVE    . 

Difficulties

Hello friends from nearby and faraway,

It's been a very hard month for me and 

it's still very excrutiating pain that I still

carry on my right hand up to the elbow.

Can't drive, can't dress without some curses,

can't sleep and I'm not a painkiller medication.

So hopefully once I have x-rays at the end of

next week some physiotherapy will help me

and just can't wait to come back again to 

this site.  

Thanks for your support and get well messages

that I received by private e-mails, and since it's

too hard for me to personally thank each and everyone

of you, I take this opportunity to say THANKS.