Little scars ....

Here I am baring my scars and 
there are people calling me brave 
and this is never what I wanted. 
I wanted to show you my scars 
because I feel like a fraud and 
I wanted to show you my scars 
so you would know how pathetic 
I really am but you don't understand, 
my scars are not battle wounds, 
they are not badges I've earned, 
I do not wear them proudly, 
my scars are representative of all the times I
 was too weak to fight those battles, 
my scars are surrenders and do not call me brave 
if I didn't even bother fighting.
 I wanted to show you my scars so 
you would stop telling me how strong 
I am because I am not strong,
 I am weak and I am still hiding from you
 because you think these scars are things
 I have overcome but these scars are the 
very things that haunt me and who are
 you to know what I am going through 
simply because I have told you?
 I am falling apart and these scars are reopening,
 I am falling apart at the seams and you are 
calling me a hero but heroes do not hate themselves
 like this. Here I am baring my scars and there are 
people calling me brave and this is never what I wanted.